One way to escape reality for the time being is drinking. Another is going into meditation and third is dreaming when you are sleeping. Third one is not in our control. I am an occasional drinker and drink when occasion pleads me to do so. But whenever i drink i became more alert, usually its antithetic for others but here there is actually struggle going on in my mind. Its like I become more focused not to create a scene or not to say something which i am not supposed to say. Also one thing i have noticed is i become more polite and quiet when i am drinking. Now quiet i can understand as that is my nature. If some people like to yak yak and when they start drinking, god knows you would trade anything to get ear plugs or 3 days old smelly socks so that you can stuff that persons mouth.So here I am drinking and getting high. Savoring those feelings but still cant let go all of my feelings or cant let myself drift into the wind. I actually try to control my actions which eventually dampens my high state of mind and which leads to nullify my objective for drinking. Its been 8 months since i have drank and i dont know but i dont feel like drinking at all. Even if occasion calls for, I still wouldnt drink. The idea in drinking is letting go and enjoying the waves but i cant seem to do that. Guess i am not cut out for drinking, what do you say?
