Sleep...cant live without it ???

There are so many questions hovering inside my mind. First of all is how come i feel so much sleepy today when i wake up at 9:30 and the whole day i tried to "finish my thesis", notice i tried but didnt do it. In short the whole day i goofed doing nothing physical and still feel as if i have done so much work and now i need to sleep. Right now the time is 9:46 PM which isnt so bad is it? Not to forget that i got more than 8 hours of sleep yesterday. Also i am really glad that i dont have any girl friend or she would have dumped me long ago because she might be talking this time and i would be yawning. Although even if i wasnt so sleepy i would still yawn cause i find most of the girls talk rubbish. Its good their talks generally doesnt require any of your mental power. All you do is nod and say really or pretend that you are intrested in their talk while in the back of your mind you are undressing her. Hoping she doesnt pick such twinkle in my eyes but i hide it preety good. well cant stay any longer or i would sleep in front of this computer. cheers

Sickness make me appreciate life

Right now i am sick, meaning i am coming with cold and cough. When I was well, I have never appreciated my good health. I just took it for granted. But now after feeling sick, I miss my health and realise how I never enjoyed my healthy life. Now i wish the pain would stop and after my pain will stop, I will again appreciate my good health, but for how long? I remember i will appreciate it mostly for 15 minutes and maximum for 1 day. After that again taking health as granted. Isnt there similarity between life too? I mean may be I will appreciate the life when my life wont be there. But still i seriously doubt if i will realise this and start living and enjoying my life to the fullest. No hope for me but that doesnt mean that there wont be any hope for you guys. Learn from my lesson and better start appreciating all the things you have otherwise it might be too late. Dream but be satisfied in what you have. Right now just wishing i have my good health back. Pray i will get my health back, i will get it eventually but dont want to suffer in cold too long.

An opportunity missed !!!

In my last post "Trick or Treat...." i wondered or assumed that since I am running out of candies, hope I dont disappoint any girl's heart. Well it happened. I had only one candy left and I opened the door. 2 Fairies were standing there. Couldnt decide whom to look first and whom to look next. After coming to my senses, I told them that I got only 1 left and the girl on the right said that she wants it because she is more cool. The other girl laughed and we all joined in it. The girl who passed the comment took the candy and went away laughing and looking at me while i just stood there like a dumb bull with my eyes open and my mouth hanging. It was like time ceased to exit. I swear this was not my imagination but i couldnt hear anything, couldnt see anything except her and her laughter. Well she didnt accept my heart because i forgot to ask her to take and had to disappoint 1 girl. Guess this is life, you hope things wont happen that way and things happen as you predict.

"Trick or Treat" gets worse if you are home alone

Well my previous posts were very philosophical so now I am taking some things lightly. Today technically I am home alone and that too on October 31st night(Halloween night). We have a aunty here so we cant expect her to answer the door. Theres another roomie who refuses to open the door. So like a girl who is angry, he went upstairs to the room. So that left me and my other roomie. We agreed that we will answer the door turn by turn. Each time I get comfy, the door rings. I am hoping that some hot chick would turn out. In fact my friend got more lucky than i did. First i opened the door and vola, a good looking chick was there. She was nice but not as nice as the one my friend saw when he opened the door. Its hard to place candies on the bag of good looking chicks because its hard to focus on their bag when i am drooling over them. My eyes are set on them. Its also hard to differentiate which one is good and which not because all of them are wearing make up.

Keeping my finger crossed and also one more problem is coming up here. we are running out of candy. So uncle has gone out to get them. I hate to disappoint those kids who comes for treat and wont get them but my heart will break if some hot girl will come and i will have nothing to offer, wondering will she take my heart as a treat?

Life is what you think or perceive

What is life? According to me, there is no definition of life. For some people it's something they have and so they live, for some people its a gift and they enjoy. I came across both of these kind of people. Let me tell you that my perception of life is the former example I have given here, but most of time I think why can't I change my attitude towards life? Sometimes I get envy and sometimes I accept that this is what is in my fate and ask myself to learn and deal with this fact. But is it?

Nobody has said that this is your fate and accept it so why should I accept it instead of making my life better as everybody wants their life to be? So all you people who thinks life is there to get you, think again. I can't seem to understand the reason behind this thought "If you fail its fate and if you succeed its your luck". Hope is better word for it, dont lose hope and be positive. Everything can be changed, its just takes a little time but you cant expect miracles to happen(well you can but dont expect it sooner).

The Power OF NOW

Ever wonder why do we always stay in past and future. We think that we are living in present but in fact we are not. Just watch and you will know the truth. First of all i want you to do is to close your eyes and just watch which idea or thought comes to your mind. Just watch it but dont judge it. Did it come after a long time? well there you are...when you were watching or waiting for the thought you were in the state of presence. Mind as said is a great servant but a terrible master. If we dont watch our thoughts it sways to and fro. Just notice...it will either think about some event of the past or dreaming about future. That is the problem. We are not staying in the present. We are not enjoying the present...instead we are brooding in past or future.


I have noticed this and wondered how to stop this. I came across a book called "The power of now" which says just be a silent observer. Just watch our thoughts but dont judge it because if we judge it than we will be thinking about present or future. It says mind cannot stay in present and that is why it takes us back to past or future to keep himself alive. All the human emotion like ego,anger,love,happiness are the illusions created by mind to keep itself alive.